I called myself being good this morning but forgoing my usual venti banana coconut frappucino and just having a venti brew with a zucchini walnut muffin instead of the classic coffee cake that i normally get. Pity I didn't check Dottie's website first. The muffin actually cost me more points than the coffee cake would, and it used up about half my points for the day. Moving on to lunch, I ordered a Chicken Chipotle Salad from Baja Fresh. Healthy eating, right? It is actually a healthy THIRTEEN POINTS.
I, for one, think it is karmic and very symbolic of how you have bludgeoned your way through hearts, heads, minds and souls. Indeed, you have shattered hopes, given question to what "love" means and caused us to wonder about ourselves. You have left your account at the Bank of Love overdrawn, as you have made more withdrawals than deposits, and the only thing left to do now is file your emotional bankruptcy.
"We can never go back. I know that now. We can go forward. We can find the love our hearts long for, but not until we let go grief about the love we lost long ago, when we were little and had no voice to speak the heart's longing. All the years of my life I thought I was searching for love I found, retrospectively, to be years where I was simply trying to recover what had been lost, to return to the first home, to get back the rapture of first loe. I was not really ready top love or be loved in the present. I was still mourning -- clinging to the broken heart of girlhood, to broken connections. When that mourning ceased, I was able to love again."
and on the seventh day, i rested, except not, because there is a wedding to attend, two tweens to pick up and a long drive through sunday traffic back to vegas. hopefully all the traffic will be heading in the opposite direction back towards los angeles and we won't be bothered with it, but i am still dreading the drive and being tired from it all.
the tweens are coming to spend the last part of their summer vacation with their favorite cousin, none other than princess peanut herself. i feel for sharmayne. that's one big pot of hormones over the summer right there, but at least there is babysitting built into that package.
and so another work week will start tomorrow. my boss, the queen of flexibility, has given me a schedule change that is going to allow me to get more hours in at the part-time job in the mornings before coming to my day job so to speak.
and through all of this, i have still been managing to update on a daily basis. well at least for the past week. i'm just trying to show up anitra, that's all.